Because They Made Me

pincushioned:

CUSTOM COMIC BOOK SHOES GIVEAWAY!
I’m about to move apartments and while clearing out my (huge excess of) stuff, I found a number of comics that I don’t want but frankly can’t bring myself to just throw away when I could do something creative with them.  I’ve also been wanting to do something as a thank you to all of you fabulous people who are inexplicably following this blog, so I thought: how about a custom shoe giveaway?

Everyone has a different comfort threshold for shoes and I don’t have a large selection of different sizes just lying around, so the catch in this giveaway is: you have to send me the pair of shoes you want customized.  They can be whatever you want: old, new, simple, crazy, cheap, fancy—just remember that I’m gluing paper to these, so don’t send me your $200 heels unless you’re really okay with that!  Depending on the style of the shoe, I may add other decorations (such as with the Fantastic Four wedge heels I made for Ammy, above).  You provide the shoes and ship them to me, but I’ll cover the cost of shipping them back again, all decked out.  I will ship internationally.  

Just a few caveats for the shoes:
  • They have to have enough surface area for me to effectively cover with comics (no strappy sandals, unless we’re talking really broad straps and/or a hell of a lot of heel/platform for me to work with) 
  • They have to have a relatively firm form (for example: no sneakers or fabric Converse—they just bend and crinkle too much and the paper would tear despite the sealant)
  • Boots cannot have a shaft higher than approximately ankle height.  Platforms/heels can be as tall as you want.
  • I reserve the artistic license to decide how much of the shoe gets covered in comics and what other decorations are made.  I might cover the heel in comics, or if the heel is hot pink suede, I might leave it as is!  Or I might cover it in glitter, or add a bow, or metal studs.  It’ll be a surprise!
Here are the comics you get to choose from: 

DC:
Catwoman
Lobo
Extreme Justice
various single issues

Marvel:
Wolverine
Fantastic Four
Punisher
Daredevil
X-Factor
various single issues

Manga:
King of Bandits: Jing (English)
Gravitation (English)
RAI (English)
D-Gray Man (Japanese)
Naruto (Japanese)

You can also request any sort of combination, such as “Fantastic Four + Daredevil” or “all DC” or even an era if you only want old-school art or post-90s art on your shoes.  
If you don’t want any of these, you can also send your own comics!

Rules: 
  • You must be following this blog (pincushioned) at the close of the giveaway period.  
  • Reblogs and likes are each one chance to win.  You can reblog as many times as you want for more chances, but, you know, be respectful of your followers and don’t spam?
  • You must have Asks open so I can contact you if you win!
  • This is not a commission; I do have other projects that take priority and sometimes real life intrudes.  That said, I will ship your completed shoes no later than August 31st, and probably well before that.
  • This giveaway will run until June 15th.  Get your reblogs in before then!

(via srsbismuth)

Anonymous asked: Do you have anyone you feel you need to apologize to or feel that any kind of reconciliation is necessary?

Yes, I have lots to apologize for through my life. 

Anonymous asked: Well, there was also the "subconsciously induced" bit. So there is room for confusion as to whether or not you are in a tiny box of despairing loneliness or just too wrapped up in your idea of loneliness to see that people care about you.

Anytime I try to talk to someone, I get blown off or ignored. Even in person. I’m not stupid. It isn’t hard to see I’m unwanted in all the social circles.

Anonymous asked: So, you don't have anyone you can talk to? Even if it's just casual conversation?

You don’t comprehend that ‘crushing isolation’ do you.

Anonymous asked: Are there any good things happening?

My writing is smoother, my body is much more sleek and toned, and my voice is much improved. But just because I’m working hard and bettering myself instead of wallowing in self loathing doesn’t mean anything around me changed.

Anonymous asked: What's wrong?

Complete isolation (whether subconsciously induced is unknown) and this loneliness is literally crushing who I am. I’m just spending my time writing about a cruel book, clearly cruel to the outside world and everyone around me, but mainly cruel to myself and who I am. It’s painful but has potential. I’m tired of being alone every minute of every day and nobody talks to me or texts me or does anything and I’m really exhausted of being alone with myself.

Anonymous asked: How are things?

Very very very very very shitty.

Anonymous asked: I'm sorry.

For?

So this morning I woke up and decided it was time to rock. I jump out of bed and start blaring Totally Fucked on my phone. Kick my door open and JAM THAT SHIT, DANCING IN MY UNDERWEAR AROUND THE HOUSE. FUCK YEAH. Rock my way out to the family room, turn, and make eye contact with some strange fat dude cleaning our pool. Without breaking eye contact, I slither backwards into my room and lock the door.

The moral of the story is that it’s never REALLY time to rock.

Loljk but holy shit did I fuck up that dude’s day.

I’ve done it again. I’ve thrust myself into everything I’ve ever wanted. Friends, comics, running my own life. I got the role in the musical. Writing my book. But I find myself blocked in. I’ve isolated myself from what I had before. Nobody around me is a person I can fully confide it or be consoled by. I’m alone, surrounded by people. And the loneliness is slowly killing me.